Truth or Consequences, New Mexico
As a rule I have found 20six to be one of the nicest places that I have ever found. There is a real support and understanding from everyone even though often we are in very different circumstances. I have become safe and secure in this place and shared with you all my most intimate secrets because, (and I know this sounds odd) but I forget I am sharing (like big brother house members forgetting the cameras).
We are all very different people in this little community, married - single- men - women - teenagers but and this is the really nice bit we strive in the main part to understand that we are different and not to judge.
It would be easy for me to only ever blog completely politically correctly hoping to be liked and admired. But I am a seriously flawed person in many ways so what on earth would be the point? I have chosen for this blog to be a my diary and my best friend isobel will testify that it has helped me hugely to come to terms with both my good and bad points - I am a person who needs to see things in front of me and here they are. I was basically this or the therapist.
I made a throw away comment on my last entry about myself (I am actually scared of repeating it which is stupid and not what 20six is about so sod it)... I said on my last blog that I was a millionaires daughter. This is a fact about me in the same way that I am blond, I am tall, I drink too much. Fact not boast but fact. People who know me will know that this fact has caused me huge problems in my life, as well as the obvious benefits. It actually led to a very interesting non offensive discussion this morning which I was happy to have because I don't think I handle it very well sometimes and its great to know how I come across.
In the middle of the discussion though somebody was pretty mean to me - suggesting in a school-child way (and I remember those school children bullying me to death years ago) that I was boasting (when you read the contents of the entry you will laugh at that considering how rubbish I'm feeling today about my weekend antics).
I have learnt the hard way that labeling people is the easy thing to do in life, understanding the person behind the label is much harder and very few people take the time - 20six is the notable exception in this. I often fail myself - I labelled the boy from the weekend for example - I am badly flawed. FACT!
In conclusion - I mean not to offend with anything I write and will always apologise if I have, but I am who I am and I can't help that so if you don't like it BUGGER OFF my blog and don't come back, certainly don't write horrible things about something I can't change in my life.
If you do like who I am that's great and I'm so very glad that I got the opportunity to meet you so lets sit down and put the kettle on eh?
D x x
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(3.11.03 14:08) god, I was so busy ranting in my own blog I've missed the whole debate. I like you Daisy. Can you lend me 100 quid? I'm kidding, I'm kidding! Here, have a sweetie mate. xxMxx |
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(3.11.03 14:11) Lol - and no - I'm the child not the purse keeper unfortunately!! Hence the New Look shoes. Tea though?? |
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(3.11.03 14:19) Tea : ) In an hilarious twist of fate, I am, in fact, wearing New Look footwear as I type. Boots tho. Mmmmmm, suede skirt...mmmmmm, knee length boots... |
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(3.11.03 14:22) Honesty is the best policy. You're a flawed diamond and I appreciate that. Have some coffee and biccies and ciggies... I'm off to the pub for pre-Manchester drinks, etc. Rock and roll. Byeeee! Davey xxx |
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(3.11.03 14:25) You must blog about what you feel you want to Daisy. I think though, inevitably (as in real life) there wil be a personality clash here and there. Maybe the flippant (yet entertaining) way you blog does not do justice to the frailty and sensitivity that lies underneath Daisy's petals? However, it is your choice not to routinely show that side of youself by blogging about it. Even so, if you make the choice not to, then people may see you as more resiliant than you are at times, and you may have to take some knocks along the way. In real terms you are one of the most popular blogs on here so take pride in that. |
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(3.11.03 14:26) Oh oh Davey - I'm in the Pool at the weekend... Shall we try to hook up? D x x PS Em - pink stilettos - classy x |
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(3.11.03 14:29) A - I have no problem with cool discussions (like we had). I guess I don't like being slagged off for something I can do absolutely nothing about. You understand I think? D x x PS Original bloggers will know I have a very sensitive and scared side but it is not my natural personality to show it often and this is a truth blog...X |
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(3.11.03 14:36) I get your point. You don't choose your parents or their circumstances, and the floor man didn't either I might add. I feel the best way to hold a discussion is eloquently and respectfully, that way you don't let yourself down first and foremost, as well as offend others. It was surprising and refreshing to read your comment the other day on here about needing a man cuddle to feel safe, and I think I remarked at the time about it. The daisy in the shade is sometimes more attractive than the daisy basking in the sunshine, purely because the attention is always on the flower in the sun, and it's nice to look at the less exposed sometimes. That was an analagy by the way. Which I hope you'll understand? |
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(3.11.03 14:37) Hear hear TT. |
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(3.11.03 14:45) Wey-heh-heh! I did wonder when someone would pick up on this. Unfortunately, money always brings out the worst in people. For you, being a Millionnaires' daughter is a fact, for others their jealousy spurs them to be hostile, moralistic and venomous. People believe that because you have access to money that then gives you an extra thick skin and them the right to pursecute you because they don't have access to money. Don't sweat it. |
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(3.11.03 14:46) Daisy, take no notice of them. A lot of people on 20six have some bitterness to them, that goes against the feeling of comradery within 20six. We don't know what's causing their pain, and so therefore cannot explain their bileness imposed apon us. Being a fellow abusee I've learnt either to ignore, or employ a Private Sec. to write back to them. Feel free to use PeterJ when you can find him. xxx AB |
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(3.11.03 14:49) OOohh AB I missed that. Like the way they published it twice!! |
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(3.11.03 14:55) http://www.20six.co.uk/weblogEntry/1ke2r9032tcqh.htm#comments This one is for you Anoymuse  )And truly the floor man could change his circumstances after all my father did. Minks - cheers and don't worry I'm kind of used to it... doesn't stop it stinging me or my parents or my sister though... And its hard because you are always caught between pride and shame... I was waiting for someone to comment on it too and always thought it was lovely in the past when I mentioned it that no-one did. D x x |
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(3.11.03 14:59) xx |
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(3.11.03 15:31) Oh D - one of the problems with blogging & the internet is that people can hide behind their anonymity and feel it gives them the right to say what they want, regardless of whether it could hurt or offend the person at whom it's directed. Try to remember that if they ever met you they'd not say what they thought, either because they'd be too gutless, or (more likely) they'd meet you and realise how mistaken and prejudiced they were. |
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(3.11.03 15:34) oh my goodness. Hello lovely. Am catching up with the drama this morning. So someone commented on the millionaire thing huh? Well. I would worry if I didn't know you can handle it! Don't you worry about the nasty people. And make mine an earl grey please hon. |
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(3.11.03 15:41) Issy - It's funny because I have (as Minks knows) mentioned it a few times when it is relevent to something and everytime I did I thought should I? But you know the point of this blog for me is that its completely me... so how on earth could I avoid it? Ah well... Biscuit? |
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(3.11.03 15:44) Cheers NickD... its the difference between a discussion and just meaness I guess. Small minded muppet (not you - him). Will I see you in Number 10 later? D x x |
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(3.11.03 15:49) I think I haven't read your blog before, well I must have lost a lot. I liked you honesty. |
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(3.11.03 15:54) No 10? Is that the number of your private bedroom suite in Claridges? |
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(3.11.03 16:01) Ha ha ha... How did you know that? No - where the PM lives you know... got afew blogging laws to sort out... and a new suggestion for a prisoner... |
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(3.11.03 16:10) Damn. I'd better phone and cancel the room service. I look forward to hearing your new proposals, Ms Whip. |
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(3.11.03 16:43) Daisy – I’ve always loved your honesty when it comes to blogging, which is why I always read your blog. There are a lot of people out there who fit a social stereotype of being “Little Miss Rich-Kid” (just watch that Young Posh and Loaded – its rubbish, but you’ll get the idea) and you just aren’t one of those people. Yes – there are times where you will mention something, and people will berate you for it, but they have no good reason to, and probably only jealousy at what they don’t have to fall back on. To answer the un-written question – you shouldn’t feel bad about yourself, just because you used a guy – but it is unfair (in my eyes) to not make it clear to him what your situation is. I advise not turning off your phone, and facing up to it – then telling your critics to smeg-off, ‘cause there’s nothing more to criticise. You can live any way you want to – just so long as you are as fair to everyone else as you are with yourself. Keith (You keep going girl!) |
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(3.11.03 16:49) Bless you Keith - that's the reason right there *looks up* I value your advice so much. Your a really good friend. Cheers D x x |
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(3.11.03 16:59) Thanks for the link Daisy, it was a very moving entry. I think sometimes to an odd passer by you may appear shallow and unreal, and very removed from a bog standard life, this will make it harder for some people (for their own reasons) to relate to you. This might be what makes it tempting for people to take a swipe at you. I'm speculating of course. This is why I refrained from making any rash judgements about you earlier, it's not what I'm about (thankfully). Basically I'm just getting to know you and there's no way I can learn everything about the kind of person you are, experiences you've had, and defense mechanisms you have developed in your 'real life' during the short time I have been at 20six. I meant by my comment earlier that the vulnerable side of you was no less interesting and appealing than the sparkly you that's all. I am sure the floor laying man can and maybe will, alter his circustances, if you don't want to stick around to find out then I just wanted to make sure it was for the right reasons. He might not be 'the one' but someone unexpectedly unsuitable may be the one for Daisy, don't discount them too readily because of where they came from, think about where you can go as a couple *if* indeed you think they're 'the one'. We all deserve happiness. |
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(3.11.03 17:11) Its the link that kept me blogging in this style. I poured my heart out that day and I got so much support from people i consider good friends now like Keith and Laurieloo and Minks and Bonhote (bless x). I suddenly realised that this was a good way of getting my demons out to a non-judgemental group and I have been 100% honest ever since. It was a turning point as I scared myself and nearly never blogged agin. D x x |